
Well i have absolutely nothing to blog about especially since a part of my world has been shattered. Why is it you ask? Well after a very normal, very common mishap in my pregnancy last Sunday night I will be refraining from the highly anticipated family vacay next week. I have shed my tears, stayed up late at night thinking, role played, talked about it, mulled it over 1000 times, asked every pregnant person, rationalized, justified, fought, ticked my Dr. off just to be reminded that it's not worth the risk in going. (see video below, Alexis a few days old weighing 2lbs.) The bath is just a small tupperware box. She is only barely over a foot long!

Oh I am so happy ALexis survived that horrific ordeal!!! That was the first time i held her at 6 days old.
But...Can I have pity right now? I don't live by my whole family and this would be the 3rd annual beach trip in North Carolina. It is a blast and i have looked forward to this trip since last year when i drove out of the beach house driveway crying. THe first two hours upon leaving I couldn't even talk last year, because I just wish SOOOOOOOO bad we all live next door to each other. Some family's could care less and they get this wish, and that is my dream and it will probably never happen!! I am SOOO blessed and happy that we live right near my parents.
Anyways, the babes are doing great and everything looks normal, but if something were to happen on this trip I would be so mad at myself. So like mom says this is just one season of vacations we will miss and it is no big deal. Jen told me that we will skype and i can be a part of certain things via computer. Jason has been very sympathetic and keeps telling me to fly my sista's out for a weekend sometime soon. He has been very nice to me. We also had to cancel the part of the trip to drive to Ohio to visit his dad.
Anyway, if anyone wants to do something fun these next two weeks to take my mind of my depression then call me and let's go do something fun!!!!