Too sad to reread... and oh yeah, maybe I am not private anymore!!

Well a lot has happened in a months time. Jason got a job with XO Communications in Baltimore and we are moving to MD in a week. In fact the movers are coming on Thursday to move us out. WAAHHH!! I am really sad and heartbroken to leave. Excited to live on Darnestown Rd, but horribly sad to leave mom, dad and amazing friends, clients and life in Vegas of 28 years. Whenever i think about dad and ALexis i honestly lose it. Talk about knife to the heart. They really are best friends and dad worships that little girl and has grown so close to her. Dad does so much for us it is unreal. Lately, he will go to Sam's Club as often as I need or the Beauty Supply every Wednesday. He babysits ANYTIME i need him and babysat her every Monday and Wednesday from 2-5 ever since she was a baby until i quit working. He has fed me numerous meals and has served us so selflessly. I honestly don't know what I will do without him. Dad not only is Alexis your best friend, you are my best friend and you have no idea how much i love you and admire you and will miss you coming over everyday. I am sooooooo sad to leave mom, even though her work schedule doesn't allow us to hang out during the week, day to day conversations and the babysitting on Friday nights, the late night haircuts and EVERY sunday dinner almost make it unbearable to think about leaving. Mom is always willing to help me and I have loved having her in my kids lives. I hate this. I hate this topic of leaving and i almost wish someone would just throw me really hard right now and i would land in Maryland so i wouldn't have to deal with goodbyes. Saying goodbye to my Gyno who has delivered my three babies was SOOO hard to do today. My amazing friends are taking me to dinner on Thursday and I don't want to bawl my eyes out, but i probably will. It will be hard for me to walk into the stores in Maryland and not know one single person. Honestly almost anywhere I go, I see someone that I know. that will be wierd. VERY WIERD! I am very happy to live right by Jenn, Jill, Johnny and Jayne and realize that that is SUCH a blessing. How many people all end up by ALL their siblings across the USA?? (and what kids live by all 11 of their cousins?) Mitch just got engaged and the lovely girl is also from the same neck of the woods so they will most likely end up out there too. I will miss my cousins and my Aunt Mary and our late midnight chats as well as the rest of my mom's extended family. I will miss being near Jason's amazing family in Utah. Even though they were kinda far, we still saw them quite a bit and they were ALWAYS willing to come visit and HELP wherever they were needed!  That is very sad to us and Jason is very bummed about that. At least they are amazing travelers and hopefully they will always feel welcome. I love our ward. We may be the longest lasting couple in our ward right now. We have been in this ward for 9 years now, but it has split twice so we aren't with the initial group. But we have made excellent friends over the years. I have done hair for 10 years and have made lifelong friends who have followed me since talk talk, my first salon. In ten years I have worked at (in order) talk talk, Madison Taylor, Robeign, Radichi, Suite One, Vintage, Belle Cheveux and lastly home. I can honestly say I loved working at every last one of those places because the clients and coworkers made my job a blast. I love doing hair because of the relationships that were created. OH HOW I WILL MISS THESE PEOPLE!! I had to say goodbye to most of my clients when Alexis was born and i lost more when I got put on bedrest, but I really do love the friends I have made doing this and will always have the best memories. Lastly, I think Heavenly Father created Facebook and Blogs just for me, BECAUSE I don't think I will feel so far away because I will always feel connected to this life. CHecking in on all the people I care about regularly makes this change seem a little more possible. I hope it doesn't end. Hopefully Y2K won't happen in 2010 and make computers obslolete! I would be so distraught. I won't name off all the friends that I will miss, but you know who you are who mean the most to me. I have such amazing friends, some lifelong and some that I have know for only a few years, that seem like I have known them forever. They are such great friends and examples to me and I will always admire them. Anyway these are just a few of my feelings. I don't want to get to into this entry or I will just start crying and I have to much packing, but for all of you who I am leaving, I LOVE YOU and I will miss you so much and for all of you I am coming to live near I am so blessed to be in your lives everyday, until then WHERE IS THE KLEENEX????