Save the best for last!!!

Save the best for last! ( i really do love them all equally!) Love my little Alexis girl! Where do I begin? Well most the time she is a little helpful angel and for that I am quite greatful for the extra set of hands to help me all day long. Actually all day long isn't accurate now that she is in preschool Monday- Thursday 8:30-12:15. I am so happy to see her go in the morning becuase a lot of my guilt of being consumed with toddlers goes away as she is off learning, playing and growing her confidence in school. I think she is the oldest in her class and for that I am very happy! I really want her to be the oldest in her peer group so that she will be a leader and have less chance to be a follower. She is such a sweet darling girl and she lets me kiss her still a ton!!! She is a very girly girl! She likes details like necklaces, bows and cute things. She will tell me I look cute and compliment people on how they look! I think it is cute that she notices details like that. I try not to put to much emphasis on looks though, becuase i don't want her to think that that is what matters.

ALexis is probably one of the most social butterfly's i have ever known. I mean this girl would/could play for 72 hours with out a break!! She loves to be with her friends, but friends are NO MATCH to her cousins!! If i really really want to make her day, i say "do you want to go to Carolines?" or do you want to call over Camille? She just get a beaming smile and then blows it off like "okay, but when are they coming over?" She tries to contain her excitement, but i can tell i just made her day! I love that about her!

She really enjoys making necklaces and bracelets for people. SHe has made a lot for friends who have been sick, or grandpa with his broken foot. She made them for her cousins who started kindergarten and for Addison. She has a sweet tender heart and still prays for Sunny and baby Diana MANY months after there trials! Everyday after school ALL she wants to do is come home and watch Little House on the Prairie. The best part about that is that I get to have a nap next to her on the couch! Awesome! A couple weeks ago the episode was about a little girl with a stuttering problem. Nellie was making horrible fun of the child and I looked over at Alexis and she was just FIGHTING back the tears. I pretended not to see so that she wouldn't be embarrased and try to hide her emotion the next time. I loved to see her feel that and it made me realize again that she is growing up and understands these emotions.

She is Such a great helper! Honestly this girl should get paid! She runs around this house all day helping me out~ She really cares about the twins so much and wants to help them. Often i correct her or yell at her prematurely not realizing that she was really trying to help a situation rather than cause a problem. Don't worry, i feel a lot of guilt over it daily!!

She loves to be held and kissed still and I loved that and still do it A LOT! However in the morning she DOESN'T go near us, becuase she thinks we smell! She has been clearing the kid dishes and rinsing them and putting them in the dishwasher. She loves to have little jobs like this. She takes great pride it in. She doesn't like to do the typical make your bed, clean your room job so much, but the other jobs I find her that are like real MOM jobs she really likes. She LOVES to help me cook or bake, which unfortunately doesn't happen enough! At night she still requests that we sing her two or three songs consisting of Cherries are ripe, hush little baby, tender shepherd or Coldplay.

She loves to have showers and baths!! She hangs out in the shower for up to a half hour at times! She loves when all three of them have a shower together! They really have a grand old time! One of her best friends is Addison next door! they really play GREAT! They play outside quite often and mostly play in their house becuase his mom is awesome and has like amazing crafts always going! I am quite unorganized and overwhelmed and they are ready to learn and get dirty at their house! I am VERY greatful for the neighbors and how great they treat her!!! SHe loves them and so do we! Often Papa neighbor will take her to Addison's karate class and she will observe the class. Sometimes she likes it sometimes she doesn't! She loves to ride her bike outside and go on walks! She still loves her stuffed animals and blankie! She is also a VERY silly girl and I love that about her!! I sure love my baby girl and am truly the most blessed mom in the world!!

IN LOVE.

Mild Mannered Matty.

Well on to baby A. Matthew, or Matty or Matt. I like to call him my baby boyfriend. He is the most handsome little boy in the world! I feel like he is a little boy not a baby. He has just the sweetest disposition. He can, MOST OF THE TIME, just go with the flow. This is not to say that he hasn't thrown a FEW MAJOR half hour tantrums, but next to our little whiney lovey he just usually sits back and relaxes as he observes his parents frustration grow and grow with his little sidekick. See we thought Mitchie was all innocent didn't we!

He is this way most of the time. When Matthew was a newborn even up until now, if he is in his bed and wants something like a bottle persay, his lungs are in 100% working order. It is the LOUDEST most abrasive sound on earth, or at least in a VERY quiet as a mouse house it is. There isn't really any ignoring going on because he will wake up the whole house. Now he will say dadda, or mamma, or nay nay (blankie) or bobba over and over until he sees you caved. When you do go in you are never mad, because he is so gosh darn loveable and sweet that you are just so happy to be snuggling his heavy little big boy body.

This is the boy who will be on the couch and will pat the couch for you to take a seat next to him. He will usually sit on you or right next to your for up to 15 minutes very content. WE ALL LOVE THIS!!! He will kiss you whenever you ask. He knows really well that I will always ask for a kiss when he wants something from me. He loves shoes and books and loves to be read too. He loves to run down hills, something I hate because I am always terrified he will bash his teeth out!

He likes to sing songs and loves to cuddle. HE IS OBSESSED WITH HIS naynay (blankie). He wants it A LOT and often I will watch him as he disappears upstairs to his bedroom floor just to snuggle with it. OH I LOVE WHEN I SEE THAT! I don't love when he demands to take in with us when we leave ANYWHERE! I WOULD NEVER EVER deny him on a long trip (15 minutes or more!!) or that would be all I would here the whole time. "nay nay, nay nay, nay nay, nay nay!"

He has the most beautiful white hair i have ever seen! Some kids are almost weirdly white, well his is just perfect! I LOVE THAT I HAVE a real towhead!!

I think he gets it from him.

This kid will one day be responsible for an ulcer that I WILL get! He does some dangerous scary crap!! He jumps off anything onto his butt. His FAVORITE thing to do right now is get out of the bath and dive back in while the other two are still in there. He will do this as fast as he can over and over again. It about gives me a heartattack each time he does it, but it does not stop him!

I have never known a little 22 monther say thank you as much as this little guy. It actually sounds more like "dutuh" (butsayitreallyfast) and he uses it in the right context over and over throughout the day. Again, i LOVE THIS! He is a peacemaker. If Mitchie is sad or mad Matty will often share his toy or just give it to him. That is really true. He really acts selfless when someone else wants his thing. It really shocks me that he does it so often.

Okay, well that is Matthew. I LOVE THIS KID SO MUCH!! He is the sweetest little thing ever. I sometimes look at him strangely like he doesn't seem like he came from me. Maybe it is becuase he doesn't resemble me at all, but I feel like I have to earn his respect a little. Maybe it is because I haven't had a kid who REALLY prefers his daddy at any given time. So i feel like I have to ask permission to "sit by him on the school bus" does that make sense?

Two words though. IN LOVE.

Mitchell on the MIND

Mitchell has my heart.




I honestly had no idea that I would be truly madly in love with my boys. It is hard to admit now that when the Dr told me I was having twin boys I was a little sad that at least one was not a girl. I kind of felt that way until I met them.

Tonight my post will be on Mitchie or Mitch or Mitchell.

THis boy is so darling I can hardly stand it. I ADORE the gap in his cute white teeth. I ADORE those curls. It is so hard to cut them until I see his hair short and realize he is just as stinkin cute, just a little more grown up!

He is my little sidekick. He wants me AT ALL TIMES and anyone who knows him knows that fact to be SURE. As hard as it is at times, I love that that little boy is my shadow and he wants me in his sight at all times. If I walk out of the room the wailing starts until he finds me.

Mitchell squeals with delight when I see him in the morning. He will dive onto his crib with pure excitement as if to say "Yeah were together!"

He won't, almost refuses, to go downstairs by himself if I am in his view. He must be carried by me. That causes a chain reaction and then matthew expects it too. So, yes, SO VERY OFTEN you will find me lugging both of them up and down the stairs at the same time. That is a hefty 50lbs several times a day.

So as much as this boy whines, which he does quite often, he is also VERY independant and likes to do his own thing. He will be the caboose on our walks just strolling along looking and exploring at his own pace.

He thinks he older than he really is. He is most content trying to sneak his way onto chairs or into the office desk drawer. He has to have things his own way and heaven forbid it isn't he will throw a MAD fit! Lately what seems to work is saying "okay mitchie let's go sit in your crib until you can stop crying". 99% of the time the second i set him in there he is done crying. So i walk out of the room and usually walk right back into a happy smiley child. I say "are you done" He will nod yes and then stand up ready to leave his time out. Totally unaffected by the previous 1o minutes of pure tantrum. Hilarious. In fact he usually remains in a semi state of being frozen. He stays in the same position holding on to a crib rail until I reach to get him.

Mitchie will very willingly give and offer kisses. His kisses are just a perfect kiss. He will even hold your face to kiss you. The other day he hurt Matty. I told him to give him a kiss and he softly put both hands on Matthews cheeks and softly kissed his open mouth. I honestly can say my heart melted at that moment. If i had a video camera I can be sure it would be all over you tube becuase it was SOO sweet and sincere.

Lastly, Mitchie is one perceptive little chap. WITHOUT fail if I offer Mitchell two crackers one to eat and one to give to give matthew, he sneakily eyes them both up and down and will ALWAYS pick the bigger one. I have tested this one over and over again and 90% of the time he picks the one that is even slightly bigger. I can't believe he notices it so clearly. If he has a cup of water and Matty wants one too Mitchie will give his half drinken cup to matthew and BE SURE to get the new and improved one. WITHOUT FAIL! It is actually hilarious to see this side of him because i totally know where he gets it. ME, his selfish momma!

IN a nutshell this boy is my sunshine and I could and DO kiss his sweet ANGELIC face over and over daily. Probably 100+ times a day!

He is always smiling! He loves to dance and has quite good rythm. He will stay as limp as a newborn if I cradle him while slow or fast dancing with him.

Something about this boy...

Mitchell has my heart. I honestly had no idea that I would be truly madly in love with my boys. It is hard to admit now that when the Dr told me I was having twin boys I was a little sad that at least one was not a girl. I kind of felt that way until I met them.

TOnight my post will be on Mitchie or Mitch or Mitchell

THis boy is so darling I can hardly stand it. I ADORE the gap in his cute white teeth. I ADORE those curls. It is so hard to cut them until I see his hair short and realize he is just as stinkin cute, just a little more grown up!

He is my little sidekick. He wants me AT ALL TIMES and anyone who knows him knows that fact to be SURE. As hard as it is at times, I love that that little boy is my shadow and he wants me in his sight at all times. If I walk out of the room the wailing starts until he finds me.

Mitchell squeals with delight when I see him in the morning. He will dive onto his crib with pure excitement as if to say "Yeah were together!"

He won't, almost refuses, to go downstairs by himself if I am in his view. He must be carried by me. That causes a chain reaction and then matthew expects it too. So, yes, SO VERY OFTEN you will find me lugging both of them up and down the stairs at the same time. That is a hefty 50lbs several times a day.

So as much as this boy whines, which he does quite often, he is also VERY independant and likes to do his own thing. He will be the caboose on our walks just strolling along looking and exploring at his own pace.

He thinks he older than he really is. He is most content trying to sneak his way onto chairs or into the office desk drawer. He has to have things his own way and heaven forbid it isn't he will throw a MAD fit! lately what seems to work is saying "okay mitchie let's go sit in your crib until you can stop crying. 99% of the time the second i set him in there he is done crying. So i walk out of the room and usually walk right back into a happy smiley child. I say "are you done" He will nod yes and then stand up ready to leave his time out. Totally unaffected by the previous 1o minutes of pure tantrum. Hilarious. In fact he usually remains in a semi state of being frozen. He stays in the same position holding on to a crib rail until I reach to get him.

Mitchie will very willingly give and offer kisses. His kisses are just a perfect kiss. He will even hold your face to kiss you. The other day he hurt Matty. I told him to give him a kiss and he softly put both hands on Matthews cheeks and softly kissed his open mouth. I honestly can say my heart melted at that moment. If i had a video camera I can be sure it would be all over you tube becuase it was SOO sweet and sincere.

Lastly, Mitchie is one perceptive little chap. WITHOUT fail if I offer Mitchell two crackers one to eat and one to give to give matthew, he sneakily eyes them both up and down and will ALWAYS pick the bigger one. I have tested this one over and over again and 90% of the time he picks the one that is even slightly bigger. I can't believe he notices it so clearly. If he has a cup of water and Matty wants one too Mitchie will give his to matthew and BE SURE to get the new and improved one. WITHOUT FAIL! It is actually hilarious to see this side of him because i totally know where he gets it. ME, his selfish momma!

IN a nutshell this boy is my sunshine and I could and DO kiss his sweet ANGELIC face over and over daily. Probably 75 times a day!

He is always smiling!

So let's see... Where are we now.

Mom retired and came to johnny and MItchell's baptism. They were here for a week and were

They say writing is therapeutic

Okay well, you got me Phyllis, you said that one day i would come to miss that dog. And honestly i haven't stopped crying on and off for the past 2 days. How can you not. Even if you never let your dog sleep in your bed or anywhere near it, or you don't let your dog mingle on the main floor of your home, or you make her stay in a basement most of her days because you dislike dog hair and dog smell and drool, you can't help but miss the face that you have looked at for 8 and half years over and over all through each day. I think for the most part I was a good owner. I know there are lots better and lots worse. I didn't lean down and kiss her, but i rubbed her body and head often and talked nice to her A LOT!! I told her sweetly everynight goodnight and love ya. I enjoyed seeing her and having her around 24/7, even though most people heard me complain and talk rudely about her. NOW I AM PAYING FOR IT. I feel like hell that most of you have the worse painted picture of her. I know that most of you weren't to fond either of her, but i let on that she was a lot harder and high maintenance than she was and I regret it. When I think of her face i see Alexis in her, mainly because they were together so much. Now that she is gone, i feel like she was the 4th child that was pushed aside. And i feel so sad, because she deserved more than that because she was a sweet dog who offered nothing but love and affection. My advice to you is don't get a dog if you can't give it your time and energy. We were much better before we had kids, she got long walks DAILY and lots of talking time in. I have been pushed to my limits the last 2 years of my life and I feel like i am close to knockin my head against the wall several times a week. I love my life and love my situation of craziness, but i don't love that fact that I am wracked with guilt because of the lack of attention I showed my dog. In my defense i know i wasn't horrible. I talked to her a lot through out the day and gave her treats and table food to be nice. I would let her up a lot recently to play with the kids, but now that she is gone, i could have done better. I am sad that i didn't get to say goodbye to her because again she feels like she was another child, and essentially when you raise something from the time they are 5 weeks old, they are your child. And right now I feel like a very so so parent. I wish i could tell Sunny thank you for all the things she did do for me. I actually did go down to the basement and talked through my tears telling her spirit thank you. I told her thank you for being very sweet to my kids. Thank you for allowing alexis to playfully torment you for the last 4.5 years, thank you for going along with any game she wanted even if it meant you being tied to the bathroom door for two hours on a very short leash while I didn't even know. Thank you for letting Mitchie crawl all over you and dig his fingers inside your mouth, without biting him. Thank you for letting the kids step on your tail, and paws both of which you hate. Thank you forgiving me daily when I would pack up the kids in the car and leave you home behind whining cause you wanted to go. Thank you for giving my restful peaceful nights of sleep because i knew you were our watch dog as we slept. Thank you for ALWAYS giving me that peace that you would alarm us of any potential danger. Thank you for making Jason laugh a lot. Thank you for providing countless hours of entertainment for my kids. Thank you for allowing me to be surprised that dogs do cute things. Thank you for vacuuming my floor whenever given the chance. Thank you for the love you brought to the family and being a sweet dog. I know you had your problems, but it never stopped you from showing us love and I am now seeing that. Thank you for loving me even though I could have and should have done more. Way more. Sorry Sunny. Love ya. See ya on the other side!

Yes that is her dragging her butt down our hill. (hense the reason for the grose outs!)

They say writing is therapeutic

Okay well, you got me Phyllis, you said that one day i would come to miss that dog. And honestly i haven't stopped crying on and off for the past 2 days. How can you not. Even if you never let your dog sleep in your bed or anywhere near it, or you don't let your dog mingle on the main floor of your home, or you make her stay in a basement most of her days because you dislike dog hair and dog smell and drool, you can't help but miss the face that you have looked at for 8 and half years over and over all through each day. I think for the most part I was a good owner. I know there are lots better and lots worse. I didn't lean down and kiss her, but i rubbed her body and head often and talked nice to her A LOT!! I told her sweetly everynight goodnight and love ya. I enjoyed seeing her and having her around 24/7, even though most people heard me complain and talk rudely about her. NOW I AM PAYING FOR IT. I feel like hell that most of you have the worse painted picture of her. I know that most of you weren't to fond either of her, but i let on that she was a lot harder and high maintenance than she was and I regret it. When I think of her face i see Alexis in her, mainly because they were together so much. Now that she is gone, i feel like she was the 4th child that was pushed aside. And i feel so sad, because she deserved more than that because she was a sweet dog who offered nothing but love and affection. My advice to you is don't get a dog if you can't give it your time and energy. We were much better before we had kids, she got long walks DAILY and lots of talking time in. I have been pushed to my limits the last 2 years of my life and I feel like i am close to knockin my head against the wall several times a week. I love my life and love my situation of craziness, but i don't love that fact that I am wracked with guilt because of the lack of attention I showed my dog. In my defense i know i wasn't horrible. I talked to her a lot through out the day and gave her treats and table food to be nice. I would let her up a lot recently to play with the kids, but now that she is gone, i could have done better. I am sad that i didn't get to say goodbye to her because again she feels like she was another child, and essentially when you raise something from the time they are 5 weeks old, they are your child. And right now I feel like a very so so parent. I wish i could tell Sunny thank you for all the things she did do for me. I actually did go down to the basement and talked through my tears telling her spirit thank you. I told her thank you for being very sweet to my kids. Thank you for allowing alexis to playfully torment you for the last 4.5 years, thank you for going along with any game she wanted even if it meant you being tied to the bathroom door for two hours on a very short leash while I didn't even know. Thank you for letting Mitchie crawl all over you and dig his fingers inside your mouth, without biting him. Thank you for letting the kids step on your tail, and paws both of which you hate. Thank you forgiving me daily when I would pack up the kids in the car and leave you home behind whining cause you wanted to go. Thank you for giving my restful peaceful nights of sleep because i knew you were our watch dog as we slept. Thank you for ALWAYS giving me that peace that you would alarm us of any potential danger. Thank you for making Jason laugh a lot. Thank you for providing countless hours of entertainment for my kids. Thank you for allowing me to be surprised that dogs do cute things. Thank you for vacuuming my floor whenever given the chance. Thank you for the love you brought to the family and being a sweet dog. I know you had your problems, but it never stopped you from showing us love and I am now seeing that. Thank you for loving me even though I could have and should have done more. Way more. Sorry Sunny. Love ya. See ya on the other side!

Mother's Day letter's for my kids

For Mother's Day I have the goal to write to each of my children a letter telling them why I am so happy to be their Momma. In case one day they misplace their letter or rip it up out of anger toward me, I want it here for the record. This is the boys' first and Alexis 3rd I think.

Dear Alexis, Mother’s Day 2010

I just wanted to tell you on this Mothers Day of 2010 just how much I love being your mommy! Alexis you are the best daughter a mom could ask for. You are the sweetest girl who will ALWAYS give me a kiss when I need one and even if I didn’t know I needed one. You are really good at staying in your bed at night (FINALLY) and the other night you went to the bathroom quietly and on your way back to your bed you softly kissed my arm. You knew I wouldn’t wake up and you still felt the need to give me a kiss. I hope that need never ends. I will take your kisses and hugs as long as you will possibly give them to me.
You are just the best helper a 4 and a ½ year old could be. You do so many things I ask you to do. Whether it be running downstairs in the mornings to get yogurts and spoons for you kids or running upstairs in search of diapers and wipes. You will gather the bottles in the boys’ rooms and help me look for missing shoes for the boys. You will tell me I look beautiful all the time and say such sweet things to me. You are really good at cleaning your room and making your bed. You are very sensitive to other kids and your brothers. You don’t like seeing people be sad. I love that about you. If that is the one quality that means most to me it is that you will forever stay sensitive to other people. You are such a great example to your cousins. You share even when it is your favorite toy, you compliment your cousins and always give them hugs. Daddy and I are soooo blessed to have you as our daughter. I am so glad you were born first in our family because I KNOW that you will always be an example of kindness and choosing the right. You really are my best friend. I hope you always want to be my best friend because I know for sure that I always want to be yours! I love Lex.

Love,
Mommy

Dear Matthew, Mother’s Day 2010

I wanted to write you a letter telling you how much I love you! Today is Mother’s Day and I want you to know how honored I am to be your momma. You are only 18 months and I feel like I know exactly who you are. Won’t I be surprised though at how much you will continually change as you grow. You are such a sweet little boy who is filled with energy, excitement and happiness. You are such a sweetly content boy. Not much ruffles your feathers, except when Mitchie takes away your toys. You are very easy going, but are very intent on getting what you want. You insist on holding your own spoon of rice just as it goes flying across the kitchen. You love your babas sooo much. A bottle of milk can make you happy at your most upset times!! You are such a cuddle bug. You will sit on my lap or daddy’s or Grandpa Miller’s for a long period of time. You will lay your head on our shoulder or against our chest. So often I will walk upstairs to see you lying on your floor on top of your blankie cuddling it and sucking your tongue! (Something that I love to see!) You are the most handsome little man I have ever seen! I feel like I am looking at a real big kid even though you are still my little baby! I love that you and Mitchie are twins and best buds. I hope you will feel like he is your best friend for ever and ever. You two will be such great examples to each other. I sure do love you Matthew and I am so happy that you are mine for forever and ever. I hope you will always have the need to cuddle me and hang out on my lap in stillness. I love you so much.
Love,
Mommy






Dear Mitchell, Mother’s Day 2010
My sweet little angel boy. You are a mischievous little guy, but at the same time you are such a sweet, little, gappy smiley, boy who LOVES his momma. Mitchie, you are such a doll. You walk around with such confidence that sometimes I think I am looking at a 7 year old. You love to explore new things and try and figure things out. You are very independent but you also really like me to baby you. You like me to hold you and kiss you a lot and I LOVE THAT! You offer me kisses throughout the whole day and understand when I say that after a kiss I will get you the thing you are wanting. You throw great fits, so much so that you sometimes pass out! It really scares me, but actually you have only kept doing that for daddy. Your curly blonde hair is just the cutest thing and I think it is only going to contribute to your loveable personality! I hope you and Matthew realize how great it is that you have each other as a twin and really turn to each other throughout your childhood for strength. You two are already best buddies and often hug each other and pat each other’s head and back. It is priceless. I hope you always listen to your big sister Alexis. She loves you and always wants to protect you. I love you so much Mitchell and I hope you will always want to give me kisses even when you think that that isn’t really cool. I will ALWAYS want your sweet angel kisses, because you are so special to me. I love you forever and ever.
Love,
Mommy

Here are some group shots